OMG IT'S DA REAL THING !!!

Finally !!! I got my hands on the real thing.

Aizome. Mamiko Noto. The ending theme of Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori. Waited for months until my neck has expanded in length. Ohhh it's like an angel singing in the darkness and red.

New things are coming in too. New semester, new tenants, and new crapload coming. Oh gosh it's going to be another roller coaster ride.

Oh well, back to Aizome. >:)

What The Rice Bowl Told Me

I broke a rice bowl today.

Doesn't sound like a great deal, ain't it? Yet, who knows breaking a bowl has a pound worth of lessons in it? At least, I do now.

Well, I was doing the dishes when it happened. I have a bad habit of stacking up the dishes like a Royal London Circus show when I wash them, and it so happened that after all those years of happy-go-luckiness, that bad habit of mine finally claimed that innocent porcelain bowl that has been used for years.

I was like, "Oh shi-" with one big eye and the other small, while Mum - as expected - ranted beside me : "See? Told you this will happen..."

DING. My mind chimed all of a sudden. Ain't this similiar to what happens when a sudden event was triggered ? Like, a car crash, an explosion or the sorts ?

Come to think of it, we live a life inside our own bubbles. Even though the world is harsh, the society is demanding and crap happens everyday, but somehow all of us manage to shape our lives to steer clear from them - most of the time - and gradually, it becomes a routine. And when it becomes a routine, we tend to think : "Yeah, I've been doing this for all this time, and nothing bad can happen if I do it like this."

But, what if suddenly, something unexpected happens and crashes your life ? And adding to it, no one or nothing can give you a - very obvious - sign to tell you that what you're doing routinely has long-termed negative effects, or something bad could happen and your life goes crash. And even worse - we always ignore the tell-tale signals, the advice of experienced individuals, and even our own conscience just for the sake of our own life's convenience.

Just like how I broke the bowl today.

Oh well, what's happened cannot be undone. A bowl that has served my family well for ages, now lying in the trash can waiting for it's unspoken fate. My hands seek for forgiveness, and that's why tonight, I blogged.

R.I.P., porcelain rice bowl.

Broadway

[ EDIT :- It's by Goo Goo Dolls. Sorry for my forgetfulness. Corrected a part of the lyrics as well. ]

Chorus :-

[-----]

Broadway is dark tonight
A little bit weaker than it used to be
Broadway is dark tonight
See the young man sitting
In the old man's bar
Waiting for his turn to die

[-----]

The cowboy kills the rock star
And Friday night's gone too far
The dim light hides the years
On all the faded girls

Forgotten but not gone
You drink it off your mind
You talk about the world
Like it's someplace that you've been

You see you'd love to run home
But you know you ain't got one
And you're livin' in a world
That you're best forgotten around here

[To Chorus]

You choke down all your anger
Forget your only son
You pray to statues when you sober up for fun
Your anger don't impress me
The world slapped in your face
It always rains like hell on the losers day parade

You see you'd love to run home
But you know you ain't got one
'Cause you're livin' in a world that you're best forgotten
And when you're thinkin' of a joke
And nobody's gonna listen
To the one small point
I know they been missin' round here

[To Chorus]

You see you'd love to run home
But you know you ain't got one
'Cause you're livin' in a world
That you're best forgotten
And if you're thinkin' of a joke
Do you think that they'll listen
To the one small point
I know they been missin' round here

[To Chorus]

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Old song, but the meaning of the song is still fresh in my mind.

This world is totally screwed up, and it has never ceased to be. We were born, then we grew up, and we followed the way how our elders drown themselves in this sea of chaos.

Life sucks when things don't go our way. We already have enough tragedies in this society, and yet there are still inconsiderate people who will took pride on stepping on top of the victims.

And while writing to this point, I reflected back on myself - am I also one of those inconsiderate people? Maybe I used to, but that's because back then I was a child. But now, whenever I see something bad happened to others, deep inside me there will be a silent prayer, that the victims will get through those difficult times.

Though now, I felt like that young man who sat on the old man's bar. I don't drink, but now even drunkness couldn't drain away my dissatisfication towards my current condition now. The feeling's like getting stuck in thick mud, where struggling seemed futile. I don't want to be like the norm, nor I want to be some common folk who sits in a corner waiting for something to happen. That's what I felt deep inside me.

To be frank I've got no decent skills in doing anything. But I told myself most of the time, that doesn't mean I'm totally useless. And at times I realize I have a way when it comes to dealing with people in need. So that's why, I'll start this crusade to inspire as many people as possible, because I realize that's what I'm really good at.

So, if this is how it's supposed to be, then I'll have to make my next step. The stage's there, but I'll have to play it right.

Who's The FCKNG Genius ?

Two days ago, I was going out for dinner, and when I entered the lift...

......

On the floor was a puddle of unmistakably dried brown liquid on it, and the smell came in my nose too late. And there was another puddle of it just next to the switch, which I nearly stepped on due to the blind angle...

It was obviously a stray cat's doing on the brink of diarrhea, but I'm not going to blame the cat population around the area (well with all the garbage out there it's almost impossible to get rid of all of them). Instead my concerns were on...

WHO THE FCKNG IDIOT TRAPPED THE CAT INSIDE THE LIFT ?! CAT GOT FINGER AND SO SMART CAN PRESS SWITCH AND ENTER LIFT DO THEIR BUSINESS, IS IT ?!

Dangit, this world is overpopulated with idiots.